How can I explain my absence? What words can describe the complexity of my silence? I can only say that I have been one with the Tao – ebbs and flows – ups and more recently downs. My experience this year is that emotions trump intellect. I have all the know how to create a life of excellence and yet I feel swamped by inertia. How do you negotiate with darkness and pain? How do you move past anger and resentment? How do you forgive yourself and others? How do you feed the light within such that your glow emanates once again? I have practiced gentleness. I have retreated into indulgent self-care. I have wept, prayed and written pages in my journal. I have slept, moved and gloried in the many blessings of my life. And still I am paralyzed…